i'm teaching my dog a new trick..  well, she doesn't do tricks.. but i'm teaching her one.. ok, its not a trick... but basically to shake hands (paw)... and the command is "mucho gusto". .. i think that will be cool when i say "mucho gusto" and she shake hands...  :o) she is a very smart puppy and i think she should have it by next week.  once she does that, i'll think of another to teach her. i think she likes to keep her mind active.  :o)    and i've been trying to learn more Spanish. .. so i figure i will teach Miss Molly while i'm at it.   oh, she is also learning to say 'please' by bowing.  i noticed she bows when i ask her if she wants breakfast, or dinner, or water, or walk, or ride.... so now i say "please" every time she bows... i think soon she will bow on command, when i say "please".    ..   i love this girl..

day was ok.. shouldnt complain... just had a hard time getting 'into' work.. i took a break about 3 and had a starbucks.. it was really weird. i was sitting outside starbucks by myself, and i realized that i was kindof filled with anxiety.. my heart was beating hard and i just felt kindof scared.. i had to really put my focus on God and remember who He is and that He is my God.   well.. its hard to explain right now..   i was thinking about the shooting at Virginia Tech and i was thinking how there are so many extremely sad and depressed and scarey people in this world.. and it is such a FALLEN world.. and it makes me so sad.  and i can understand how people could become agoraphobic.. meaning never leaving their house. and i was thinking about my friend Merle who couldnt leave her house for years and i was thinking that it might not be so bad.. to sequester myself from the world.. but of course i dont really want to do that.. and Merle ended up killing herself with a shotgun. and God is greater.... God is greater than he who is in the world.  anyway.. kinda sad today.. but also in His arms.. so sad for the families that are having to deal with the loss of their college kids.... man.  sucks.  i must keep my thoughts on the One who is mourning with all those families.. and Who will never leave them either.  why some and why not others?  weird.. i was thinking today that i may never know.. and that i dont even care if i dont ever know.. but that if i really want to know when i'm in Heaven - - why some? what was the purpose? well, then, He will tell me.   bc He loves me. and He loves them.      well... my friends... thanks for listening.

thanks for your comments.   ya know...  today i had a glimpse (in my own mind) of my perfect church...i think i was hallucinating. but well, before i walked in the door at church, i paused and imagined that i was  there.  i confess, i did have to block out what Jason was speaking on (it was for fathers anyway...) and just had my one on one with God.  i ignored the fact that after 2 songs, we stopped for announcements, and asking how long the dads in the congregation had been dads, and having the oldest dad draw a name for a special Father's Day gift... then we went back to singing praises to God.   i know this is not optimal. its probably not good to ignore half of the real church and pretend its the way I want it...  :o}    but well.. thats what i did.    then after service i went into my 3rd graders class and loved on some kids. then after that, i got to visit with some folks.  then go home to have Fathers Day afternoon with Dennis.   it was a really really nice day. ..     Thanks, Beth for the 'thing you say'..    i like those moments when someone puts into words what is in my heart also.